Fetishissimo!

I went to Trinoma yesterday to buy gifts at natuwa naman ako sa underwear sale ng bench. Hehe. Kahit halukay ube lang ang drama at slight siksikan, worth it naman. Madami ako napili. Ayan sila haha.

I don't know why the most exciting shopping for me is underwear shopping. Mi kung anong excitement akong nararamdaman. I feel sexy din picturing myself wearing those undies haha. At least natutupad kahit papano ang pangarap kong maging model kahit sa utak ko lang. =]

Para mas maliwanagan sa bagay bagay, eto sabi ni wikipedia:

Underwear fetishism is a sexual fetishism relating to undergarments, and refers to the sexual excitement which some people experience from observing or handling certain types of underwear. Some people experience sexual excitement from wearing certain types of underwear. Some person experience sexual excitement when observing or handling certain types of underwear worn by another, or watching somebody putting underwear on or taking it off. Also, some person experience sexually excitement from printed or electronic material which includes underwear.

Ayun lang. Good vibes, enjoy the holidays (meron ba? hehe) at happy shopping sa may pangshopping pa! =]

Wish List

Ang mga minimithi ko ngayong holiday season. Pwede rin mag'extend 3rd quarter next year basta meron haha.

Above all Love, Peace and Understanding. Choz! Sana magkaroon pa kami more time ng wako ko. Good health for my loved ones at masayang pamilya na walang expiry date. =]

Ang Retro at Si Aida

I think this article is worth sharing. =]

HIV no longer fatal – doc

If discovered and treated early

By FRANCIS T. WAKEFIELD

December 13, 2011, 4:05pm

MANILA, Philippines — A doctor at the University of the Philippines (UP) Manila National Institutes of Health on Tuesday said that early treatment of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV) using anti-retrovirals has been shown to restore life expectancy and a decrease in relative risk of transmission by 96 percent.

Dr. Edsel Maurice Salvaña said that while there is no cure yet for HIV, it is no longer fatal because it can be managed, especially if treated at an early stage.

“(An individual) would not have died of HIV had the person who infected (the individual) was treated early,” Salvaña said during the recent Science Information Forum of Epidemiology of Population at Risk of HIV.

“An early treatment with anti-retrovirals has been shown to restore life expectancy and a decrease in relative risk of transmission by 96 percent,” he added.

He encouraged everyone to undergo HIV testing before it is too late. In the Philippine General Hospital, he said HIV test costs P285.

Salvaña also called on the government and the media to help increase people’s awareness on how to prevent exposure to the virus and how to avail of HIV tests for possible early treatment, if found positive to the virus.

He also describes the HIV status in the Philippines as “low and slow.”

Salvaña said that such a picture is due to several factors, such as “relative sexual conservatism” and “that 92.5 percent of the Filipino males are circumcised.”

The “low and slow” description may be comforting, still data on HIV incidence in the country in the last 10 years as stated in the UNAIDS 2010 report were still disturbing, he said.

The UNAIDS 2010 report said that new cases are up by more than 800 percent in the Philippines, with more than half of the total cases diagnosed in the last four years.

Meanwhile, Ma. Lourdes Orijola, assistant secretary of the Department of Science and Technology, called on the media to advocate among companies such as call centers to include in their corporate social responsibility the fight against HIV.

The forum was organized by DoST-National Academy of Science and Technology.

Source: http://www.mb.com.ph/articles/344683/hiv-no-longer-fatal-doc

Pan Ran =]

Naganap ang mga pangyayaring ito last Sunday. Kahapon lang pala 'yun. Trip trip lang ang pagsali namin dito and it turned out great naman. Masaya kahit nakakasakit ng katawan. Mahuli magpapakape hehe. Siyempre bawat pagtakbo may finish line or goal. Pero that time 'yung goal ko tumatakbo rin haha. I managed to shot a picture of my goal nakatalikod nga lang hehe.

Actually 'di naman siya seryosong takbuhan. May halong lakad, chika at siyempre pichuran. More fun, less run. Indeed it was a nice bonding with my workmates and a great time to appreciate people in their shorts & sandos haha. Hanggang sa susunod na takbuhan! =]

Not My Lucky Day

Yesterday night was our Corporate Christmas Party. Ayon sapat lang naman. So-so. Just enough to kill time. Iba ang Christmas Party na 'to. Mas masaya pa rin sakin ang last year. This time kasi marami nang pagbabago at nagbabago especially with our department. Aside from the whole company Christmas Party, meron pa kaming party for our department lang. Parang 'yang larawan sa baba. Nakakamiiiiiss. =']

Ngayon wala ng mangyayaring ganyan. Kahit pichur taking wala na. Kaka'sad lang. But I know meron namang reasons for the changes. Siguro nasa transition pa lang, looking forward for a good outcome.

Well balik sa Christmas Party kagabi. Buti na lang guest si Ate Gay. Nakakahalakhak pa rin siya. Medyo tahasan nga lang ang green jokes niya na 'di mo mapapanood on TV. =]

One of my reasons for attending the party - the RAFFLE DRAW. haha. Last year kasi nakapaguwi naman ako ng Steamer na bago pa rin ngayon. Pero its not my day, kaya kahit consolation wala akong nakuha. Bigo. =[

Yosi na lang muna sa labas for a while with other workmates. Then nagkayayaan sa isang ganap after the party. Quattro daw. Nabuhay naman ang dugo ko hehe. Namiss ko na kasi uminom. And then came the uwian portion. Siguro its been an hour na pinaguusapan if we're going to take a light booze. Girls lahat pala mga kasama ko at may opposite sex ko hehe. After the deliberation, next time na lang daw. Haha. Uwian na lang. Amp. Ganun ba talaga ang mga kababaihan? Peace out. =]

"Manong tabi na lang po." Dahil sa nabigong inuman, I dropped by to 7/11 na malapit samin to buy beer. Ewan ko ba kung bakit alak na alak ako that time. Ganun siguro talaga ako when I have too much energy in my body para gumala or to enjoy the night tapos 'di ko naman mailalabas.. Paglapit sa malaking fridge, may tarp na nakalagay. "QUEZON CITY LIQUOR BAN - 10:00pm to 8am". Nice. Oo na uuwi na lang. Naglalakad na. Eto na. Amp.

At home para mabawi ang pagkauhaw ko sa alak, pinuntahan ko ref namin. I ended up drinking Vita Milk haha. Ayon at itinulog ko na lang ng mahaba dahil half day naman ako bukas.

Demotivated [?]

It seems like several times I look to the bottom right part of my desktop, the clock looks like a countdown timer to me. Waiting.. Waiting for 6:30pm. Ambagaaaaaaaaal! Parang naiisip ko na lang at times like this, hanggang kelan ganito? Wala ako magawa. Wala din naman pinapagawa sa akin. The hard part is to pretend a big portion of my work hours busy. Busy-busyhan sabi nga. Lalo na kung may boss. Actually sobrang nakakabored. I feel so unproductive. Feeling ko din unti-unting namamatay mga brain cells ko. Nakakawala ng gana. ‘Yung work ko kasi may peak season lang. At talagang ngaragan. Pero pag ordinary days lang, nganga lang hehe (mi ginagawa ako pero minimal lang). It's very awkward pa when times my other officemates are very busy doing their tasks samantalang ako wala na magawa. Pumapasok nga sa utak ko, ‘di kaya ididisolve na ‘yung position ko? O kaya ako ‘ung ididisolve? ‘Wag naman sana. Hindi pa ko handa haha. Pag hindi ko na kaya ang nakababaliw na pagkabagot sa loob ng apat na sulok ng departamento namin, fieldwork lang ang paraan. Di nga lang kasi lagi-lagi pwede magfield. Minsan tuloy nagkakasala ako sa office. Like doing things na hindi dapat. Downloading music & movies, Blogging (tulad ngayon), pati Android shopping (salamat sa company wifi) at pagkuha ng mga larawang tulad ng nasa ibaba. =]

Well at least, nababawasan ang boredom ko pag ganito haha. I love my job. Hindi naman ako nanghihingi ng sandamukal na trabaho, ‘yung tama lang sana. Konting pagbabago lang sana sa distribution of work load. But kung tataasan ang salary para sa sandamukal na work, as long as I can, negotiable naman ako. =]

Cahocater Diet

Imbento ko lang ang pangalan ng diet na 'yan. Nabuo lang from the ingredients. CAlamansi, HOney, CAyenne pepper at waTER. The honey must be organic daw. Actually 'di ko alam kung tama 'yung ginamit kong honey. "Honey Bee" lang kasi ang label niya tapos wala na. Hope I got the right one. The concoction was derived ata from a lemon diet kaso mas economical ang ingredients nito. =]

I got this diet from jetlander's blog. Gaya-gaya lang. Hehe. Para lang kasing simple. The hard part is to control what I'm eating. I drank the concoction last night. Tapos I jogged this morning before I went to work. So far okay naman siya. Nawa'y masustain ko ang diet na to pati ang pagising ng umaga to jog hehe. Hinila ko lang kapatid ko kanina para may kasama ko mag jogging. Anlungkot kasi pag mag-isa. Kaya ngayon I'm looking for a jogging buddy. 4:45am-5:30am, weekdays, around SM North Edsa. Anyone? Haha. Oh siya 'yun na lang muna. Have a nice day sa lahat!

Bloody Cravings

There are times talaga that I really crave for bloody movies. More gore more fun. Nakaka'excite hehe. Last night I watched Wrong Turn 4. Typical story line. It's not as gory as I expected. Pero okay naman para sakin. Kahit papano napawi ang cravings ko haha. Mas okay sana kung more guys 'yung cast eh. . Iba kasi ang dating for me 'pag guys ang pinahihirapan at pinapatay. Lalo na those good looking and/or hunky type. Insecure ata ako sa kanila. Ang weirdo ko ba? Sinong nakakarelate sakin? hehe.

Looking forward to the 3rd Hostel movie. Sana meron agad ako makuha sa pirate bay na dvd copy. =] Ang hirap na kasi bumili ng pirated dvds ngayon hehe.

At ayon nashare ko lang naman. Wala kasi magawa. Tapos na tasks ko. Hirap umimbento ng gawain at magpanggap. Now committing internet cyberslacking haha. Ikaw anong movies trip mo? =]

11.11.11

Anong meron kay 11.11.11? Hmmmm.. Bukod sa promo ng Mang Inasal, kasalang bayan, at sa bagong video ni Katy Perry, ano pa bang meron sa petsang ito? Looks nice lang, kasi puro uno? puro onse? at siguro minsan lang dadaan ang petsang ganito. Oo nga naman. Kasi next year 12.12.12 naman ang eeksena.

Kasalukuyan akong nasa opisina ng araw na ito. Wala bang mangyayaring something out of my routine sa petsang ‘to? Wala lang. Para my souvenir lang ako kay 11.11.11 hehe. Fieldwork nga pala ako with my officemate sa Tanay at Antipolo. Hapon na kami umalis sa office. Akala ko kapitbahay lang ni Tanay si Cainta, mali pala ang hinuha ko. Mahaba-haba pa lang biyahe at natyempuhan pa ang kainitan ng araw. After more than 2 hours na biyahe from Starmall, narating na namin ang Tanay. Sarap na simoy ng hangin. Amoy probinsya. Dumiretso na agad kami sa aming pakay dahil dumidilim na. 5pm pa lang pala. After about an hour pabalik na kami. Mas matagal pa ang biyahe. Bumaba kami sa Antipolo para sa huli naming  pakay - ang bakod ng upcoming Robinsons Antipolo at ang bakod ng katapat niyang Public Market. May kadiliman na kaya ang hirap magpicture picture at hirap pumwesto ng shot dahil tabing highway talaga siya with matching rumaragasang mga jeepney.

Habang binibigyang pictorial ang mga bakod, may lumapit sa kasama ko na isang lalaki. Siguro nasa early 40s na siya. Construction worker daw siya sa ginagawang public market. Habang kinakausap niya ang kasama ko, tuloy lang ako sa pagpicture. Narinig ko na lang na pinaguusapan nila ay puro krimen along Antipolo. Mga modus at kung anu-ano pa. Siyempre kinabahan naman kami ‘nung kasama ko. Tapos wala pang masyadong bahayan at tao sa lugar namin. Nang may dumaan papalapit na mga sasakyan, nakita ng kasama ko na may inilabas na folding scissors si manong. Naalarma pala ang kasama ko kaya pala hinila na lang niya ako bigla sumakay sa tricycle na dumaan. Si manong naman ay sumakay sa kasunod na jeep. Pagsakay ng trike, tinanong ng driver kung saan daw kami. Naisip na lang naming dumaan ng Cloud 9. Kaso hindi pala siya dadaan ‘dun kaya ibinaba niya na lang kami sa may sakayan ng jeep.

My 11.11.11 Souvenir. =]

Jeep na. Ilang zoom lang ni manong tsuper sa accelerator, Cloud 9 na kami. Nawala na ang aming kapraningan habang inaakyat ang daan papasok. Tumigas ang gastrocnemius ko dun haha. When we got there, hanap agad pwesto kaso wala na ‘yung sa gilid near the view. No choice kaya kahit saan na lang kami umupo. Order kami ng Manila Beer at Chili Chicken wings with rice plus ‘yung waiter na isa sana hehe. As usual picture taking kami at palitan ng paulit ulit naming talambuhay at kung kanino pang buhay. Wheeew relaxing. Sana next time kasama ko si kulot pagpunta ko ulit dito. =]

Eksena Sa Bus

Same ordinary day. As I stepped in the bus going to Ortigas, as usual punuan na naman. Tayuan ang eksena. Pero pagdating naman sa MRT, mababawasbawasan naman ang pasahero at makakaupo ka na. Dahil ayaw umasog ng ibang pasahero sa loob, ako ang pumunta sa dulo and fortunately may libre namang upuan. Ayos window seat. Siguro bandang Q-mart na ng bumaba 'yung aleng katabi ko at may pumalit na isang guy sa kinauupan niya. So dedma lang di naman kasi siya ka'gwapuhan haha. He looks neat naman, naka'business attire at may dalang gym bag. Nang nasa may Aurora na kami, may naramdaman akong kumikiskis na siko sa side ko. Una, dedma. Pangalawa dedma pa din. Kanta na lang with Bruno Mars ng Grenade. Pangatlo dedma ko pa din. Ayoko talagang mag'assume. Until nakarating na kami lagpas Farmers. I felt his right leg leaning to mine. So parang kakaiba na talaga. I stared at him na may konting inis and just pretended to sleep na lang. Huminto ng konti ang malikot niyang katawan. Kala ko titigil na siya. I was wrong. I felt the tip of his fingers running under my left arm. Oh my. Di na talaga siguro ako nag'aasume haha. Don't know what to do. Di kasi ko sanay sa ganung eksena. Kinabahan ako ng very light kasi pumasok din sa isip ko ang possibility ng hold-up. Pero hindi naman pala. Makati lang talaga si kuya. Bumiling ako ng konti facing the window para di ako madikit sa kanya. Amfufu, di pa rin natigil si loko. Buti na lang, nagtawag na si manong konduktor ng bababa before Ortigas. At ayon nakalayas din sa tabi niya. Whew! What an experience to start my day. Tapos napag-isip ako as I walked my way to our office. What if gwapo pala siya? yummy? will my reaction be the same? Napangiti na lang ako. =]

Now Accepting Starbucks Stickers =D

110811. My first sticker for Starbucks Planner 2012.

Umpisa na naman pala ng pangongolekta ng Starbucks stickers. Last year nakakuha naman ako ng planner. Kaso hindi ko din siya masyado nagamit. Feeling ko kasi kapag sinulatan ko siya mabababoy hehe. January to March lang ako my entries. Planner turned out journal siya then later on photo album tapos wala na. Half brand new pa siya. =]

Starbucks Planner 2012

The Starbucks Planner 2012, mas handy kesa sa last year. Cute. Mas konti ang spaces para sulatan na sana masulatan ko na at may pouch bag pa siya ngayon. Sana mas maraming discount coupons this time. =]

Long Weekend. Northern Luzon Trip. =]

Eto na. Natuloy naman ang family bonding namin dahil sa long weekend. =] We went to Manaoag - Dagupan - Sta. Lucia - Vigan. Unfortunately dahil nagbabad kami masyado sa dagat kinulang kami ng oras. Sinabayan pa ng malakas na ulan kaya 'di ko napuntahan ang Santiago slash Sabangan Cove at i'explore pa ang Vigan. Special thanks sa pinsan ni erpats na kumupkop samin na very accomodating. Below are some of my pictures during the trip. =]

Daan muna sa Manaoag. Bait-baitan. =]

Nice bridge, river at kapaligiran going Vigan.

Black Sand @ Sta. Lucia Beach, Ilocos Sur. The black color is due to the mined iron ores daw.

Our Masterpiece. Kastilyong Buhangin turned out Earthworm Towers hehe.

Ang alon at si Keso. F na F ang dagat. =] Clean at hindi pa crowded. Wala nga lang aura hehe.

Pauwi na. Haba ng byahe. Andaming tulog. Andaming pagod.

Semi-Sunset. =] Nueva Ecija na sa wakas. Lapit na makauwi. Sulit na weekend!

Buti Na Lang Sabado Bukas

Friday na naman. Tapos long weekend uli. Saya. After work diretso agad ako uwi sa home province ko, ang Nueva Ecija. =] Actually, tinatamad ako umuwi. Matrapik, maulan, nakakapagod at magastos. Tapos pagdating dun, malayo sa magagarang galaan at mailap na koneksyon ng internet. Eh bakit nga ba ako uuwi? Minsan kasi nakakamiss ang amoy ng mga damo, ang konting tao at ang aking kwarto. Pero hindi yaan ang dahilan ko ngayon haha. May family bonding daw kami. May imi'meet si erpats na relative somewhere north. Ilocos. Though meron daw low pressure ngayon, hindi nito napigilan angh sarili ko upang maghanap na pwedeng puntahan sa Ilocos. Beaches pa ang aking nakita. among my searches, eto 'yung nagustuhan ko. Oo, yaang larawan sa baba. Santiago Cove at Santiago, Ilocos Sur. =]

I'm crossing fingers na sana mapuntahan namin 'yan at i'experience ang tahimik (at simple?) na buhay na malayo sa ingay ng mga sasakyan, polusyon at ang crowded ng kabihasnan. Also looking forward sa mga tanawing nakabubusog sa mata haha. At siyempre a great bonding with my family. =]

Salamat sa mga kapatid nating Muslim for their holiday. Masulit sana ang long weekend na ito. Enjoy the weekend peepz! Stay safe.

Temporary Home

"This is my temporary home It's not where I belong. Windows & rooms that I'm passin' through. This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going. I'm not afraid because I know this is my temporary home."

Ayon napakanta lang hehe. Wala kasi akong maisip na title. Ang panget kasi kung RIP, ang gloomy ng dating. Kung All Saints Day naman, napaka'common. Kaya 'yan, temporary home na lang. =]

As usual, we visited our relatives in peace sa province. Parang kailan lang kasama pa namin si lola. Nakakamiss. The way na pagalitan niya ako, pag pinagtatanggol niya ko pag papaluin ako ni ermats, ung pag'gagarden namin when I was young, paggawa ng polvoron at marami pang iba. Ambilis din ng pangyayari when she was diagnosed na may cancer siya at stage 3 or 4 na. Wala pa atang 1 year from that time, she rested in peace.

The two other names diyan sa lapida is my lolo and cousin. My lolo died when my ermats was only 9 year old. So for sure hindi pa ko nabubuo nun. Batang-bata pa si ermats. My lolo went swimming sa ilog malapit sa kanila, pinulikat & drowned. This was a sad Christmas.

My cousin and I share the same birth year. Nauna lang siya ng konti. According kay ermats, sabay kami nagkasakit that year. Unfortunately 'di siya naka'survive. I think kung nabuhay siya, siya pinaka'close ko among my cousins.

Latest relative who passed away in our bloodline was my uncle in my ermats side & my lolo at my father side. Wala sila diyan sa lapida. On process pa.

When I was young close ako dun sa uncle ko. He was one of the blacksheep daw sa family. Nagkasakit siya. Anemia ata tapos na'stroke. From then on, one good thing about my uncle, nakuha niyang magbago for the good. Nang ma'stroke siya for the second time, ayon.. alam na.

My lolo sa father side hindi kami ganun ka'close. I felt bad when he died, not because he died but because hindi ko masyadong naramdaman 'yung pagkawala niya. I just hope before he left naging okay naman ang buhay niya.

Wooaah buhay nga naman. Napapadaan lang talga tayo sa earth. Temporary lang talaga. Thank God because He let us experience life. Though minsan rough, He never fails to save us pag hindi na natin kaya. May pagka'emotero man ako minsan, and have suicidal thoughts, I can say na we should enjoy life. For it is a precious gift, a present to be enjoyed not to be wasted. At pagdating ng time na tinawag na tayo ng puting ilaw, I guess it feels so good leaving all things okay at walang regret.

That's it. Carpe diem na lang sa mga buhay, Enjoy peace sa mga sumakabila na. Happy All Saints Day sa ating lahat! =]

Isa.. Dalawa.. Tatlo.. Apat.. Lima?

Natutuwa talaga ko sa Customer Voice Survey ng Starbucks. I don’t know if this Customer Voice Survey is random at kung talagang madalas siya lumalabas. In my case kasi, nakakaapat na ko. At sana may sumunod pa. Hahaha. Masarap ang bawal libre. They’re so generous. Sana sa susunod upgraded size or complete meal na. O kaya date with you favorite Starbucks barista, wahahaha. Thank you Starbucks. =] 

Indulgence at Calea!

My Bacolod experience would not be complete without my visit at Calea. I was captivated by their cakes. Kung  pwede nga lang tikman lahat titikman ko na. Kaso kulang budget. I even forgot to drop by at Starbucks Bacolod because of the magic taste of Calea cakes. Wala tuloy ako pics dun kasi I'm taking pictures of stores featured in 2010 Starbucks Planner. Sulit ang Calea cakes. Double thumbs up!

At may bonus pa. Haha. Marami din pa lang man-made dessert ang pumupunta dito. Busog na tiyan, busog pa ang mata haha. =]

Pengeng Kalaro.

As I was browsing Hay! Men. blogspot, natagpuan ko ‘tong nakakagigil na larawan na ‘to. As in. Hahaha. Parang normal lang ata sa kanila ang nakatopless. Napako tuloy mata ko sa dalawa sa right side. Cute. Like ko pa naman ang malaman. I wonder kung ano nilalaro nila. Mukang nakaka-aaahh.. base sa facial expression nila. Sana maging kalaro ko din sila. Walong halong malisya. Pero pwede din naming meron. Lolz. =]

Paraphilias

I really don’t know what this word means. According to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM IV), paraphilias are recurrent, intense, sexually-arousing fantasies, sexual urges or behaviors generally involving nonhuman objects, the suffering or humiliation of oneself or one’s partner, or children or other non-consenting persons. Upon reading the definition, sa pagkakaintindi ko, guilty ako diyan. Am I the only one? Nope. Sigurado ako, meron pang iba. 

Voyeurism and Exhibitionism are common. Both voyeurism and exhibitionism are considered paraphilias. Minsan hindi lang natin alam na ‘yun na ‘yon. Most of us have a little voyeur or exhibitionist in us. In my case mukhang hindi siya little. Pero how can we know when is little and when is much? Hindi ko din alam. Gut feel na lang siguro. I don’t know how to categorize what paraphilia or paraphilias I am in to but I guess it falls mostly to voyeurism and exhibitionism.

Capturing photos or recording intimate moments. Taking naked or sexy pictures. Feeling hornier when I know someone is watching me making out or even just the thought of it. And the weirdest of all, being aroused by watching good loking guys suffer in a bloody and gory manner. May insecurity yata ako sa kanila haha.

Ilan lang yan sa mga gawain I feel good about. Wala naman akong nasasaktan or natatapakan. But for the conservative ones at sa mga nagmamalinis, ito daw ay imoral. Minsan napapaisip din ako kung nasaan ba talaga ang hangganan ng pagiging moral at imoral. Ang boundary ng kabutihan at ng kasalanan. Tingin ko wala din naman tunay na nakaaalam. Kalimitan ay base sa libro lamang na kung tutuusin ay tao lang din naman ang may katha.

I don’t believe a hundred percent in the bible but that don’t necessarily mean I don’t’ believe in God. Of course I do. And I know na mas malawak ang pangintindi ng Diyos kaysa sa libro na nalilimitahan lamang ng tinta at papel. Ito ay opinyon ko lamang.

Back to paraphilias bago pag may umusbong na kung ano..

If paraphilias are considered to be a disorder hindi naman siguro tama na isiping ito’y kasalan. People should help those people who are no longer in control of such disorder or at least try to broaden their thinking para sila maintindihan instead na mahusgahan. Hindi natin alam kung ano ang istorya nila bago sila nagkaganyan. Don’t judge quickly. Respect differences. Try putting yourself in their shoes. Malay mo, mag-enjoy ka din. =]

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Right now, I don't know whom to go. When I received those text massages hindi ko alam why I'm still affected. Di ko alam sa tanginang nararamdaman ko kung bakit ganito. Prior to this, my life is happy. Then after, I asked myself, am I really happy? I don't know kung hang-over lang tlaga to ng nakaraan. Mahigit ng 4 na taon 'tong hang-over na to. Fuck. Pero iba ang drama ngayon. Marami nang involve. At lahat sila malapit sa akin. Sad thing, seems like I am always the casualty.

The Characters:

A - My first. My ex. The heartbreaker. The one who got the keys that drove me crazy. Ang nakipagbalikan na 'di pa nakakabalik ay kusa nang lumisan.

B - A close friend. Kasama ko sa kalokohan. The one who fucked the one I like na after mangyari 'yon ay parang wala lang. I have forgiven him but don't expect I'll forget it. Okay kami na parang wala lang ding nangyari. His partner na parang break sila ata as of this time ay friend ni A.

C - My present. Looking forward to be my last. We're in good terms naman and I know we have mutual feelings for each other. Leaving for Saudi one of these days.

The Scenario:

C & I are in relationship for almost 5 months. Alam ko naman na masaya kami sa isa't-isa. I just don't get it na sa bawat kibot ni A, apektado ko. Today A texted me. May pagkaseryoso. A said that he likes B. A LOT. Cupid strikes again. Not with his arrow this time but with his bazooka. Tagus-tagusan. I don't know why cupid is so mean to me. Knowing B, baka matuluyan 'yung ayokong mangyari. Honestly I have prepared myself if ever na magkaroon uli si A. Pero of all the people, si B pa. I don't know kung matutuwa ba ko at maiinis at maiiyak.

Wooaaahh. Is it normal that I'm still affected? Paano ba hindi maapektuhan? I just want to focus right now to C. I really do.. SOS.  ='( 

The Croco Liners

Monday. Start of long week work again. As usual I need to rise up early 'cause for sure buses going to Ortigas are like wheeled rectangular can of sardines again. But I won't be talking about it. This is about the Croco Liners. Croco Liners because mga buwaya sila sa pasahero!! Normally my trip from Proj.7 to Kamayan (before Ortigas flyover) takes about 45mins. Unfortunately if I happen to ride on these Croco Liners, my travel would be like a provincial trip 'cause my travel time would take me about minimum of 1hr. Croco Liners stop at any places where they can see a potential prey. Normally when we are at the intersection or junction, we are waiting for the green light. For Croco Liners, red light is their favorite. Oftentimes when they see the green light, they will slow slow slow down until the light changes to red. Grrrrr.. Their favorite lair is Farmer's Cubao. They will hibernate here for about 15 minutes. Sometimes they will let other buses to overtake them. I can't see the logic to that. Amp.

Good thing this morning even if I have ridden one of these Croco Liners hindi naman nasira ang araw ko. When things go wrong, think positively. So what I did -- Aura mode. Hahahaha. Fortunately there was this guy who stood just infront of me. Tisoy, a bit chub, makinis at nakashades. =] When I saw him, nawala ang inis ko. I just secretly stared at him while singing "when I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change" hahaha. He's relaxing. I attempted to take a picture of him but I failed. I'm not good in taking stolen shots. Puro upuan 'yung nakuhanan ko hehe. Before I end this post, I searched for a picture of a tisoy guy with shades in order for this post to be interesting. Isn't he cute? I didn't notice when I posted the picture, it's Gerald Anderson pala. =] 

Chocolate Magic

As I grabbed the jar f Hershey's Kisses yesterday on our fridge my mom noticed me and said, "Huwag ka masyado magkakain ng chocolates, nakakabakla daw yan.." At that moment the instant reply my mind came up was "Huwag kang mag-alala 'di na ko maapektuhan niyan". But I paused and hold back saying that statement because they might really get what I really mean. Instead I just smiled. =]

Out of my curiosity, I googled up an article or writing related to that and this is what i found..

* Eating chocolates won't make you gay. While some people associate it with femininity, it has nothing to do with being gay. Many straight men eat chocolate, and many straight men eat when they are depressed. Based on statistics the group of people who eat the largest amount of chocolate are teenage boys, and young men.

* Eating chocolate does not mean you are gay and a large percentage of males and females enjoy chocolate (related to comfort food.) From scientific studies chocolate can affect levels of brain chemicals called endocannabinoids that are related to THC, the active ingredient in marijuana. These endocannabinoids have a calming effect on brain functions in many ways. While scientists are not 100% sure of effects of chocolate on the brain chocolate does make people feel better.

* If you smear chocolate all over a guy, and lick it off, only then is it a sign that you're gay lolz.

So that means chocolates won't make a guy gay. In a different sense eating chocolates when depressed makes someone feel better.. or happy.. and being happy is gay. =]

Whether it is true or not, it doesn't matter to me. I just realized that if my mom is really confident about my sexuality she won't be affected by what she knew about that chocolate thing. At least it somehow gave her an idea about me and when time comes, hope it will come out easy..

The Boogeyman Prince

I really dunno how will I start this blog. I'm not gifted with writing skill. I am a lousy story teller. It just popped in my mind that I want a blog. A blog that will serve an outlet of my being, a blog where I can be myself. *Don't worry I'll try to make it interesting as I can. =]*

I made this blog with my identity hidden. Why not show myself to the real world? Well, its not that easy. The world is harsh. No need to elaborate. By the way, I'm a closet prince.

Closets are for clothes. And for boogeyman. Well for me, it's a temporary home. Temporary because I'm not planning to live my life inside the closet forever. I just need to build walls within me for now. Living inside the closet somewhat gives me protection.. It may look like a small rectangular box, where you can't move at ease and feel suffocated but I'm getting used to it. Good thing I'm not claustrophobic. =]

Uhm.. I'm running out of words now.. I think this is enough for an introduction. I think I really need to attend a journal writing class haha. =]